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Monday, January 16, 2012

What do you see?

Hammer pounding mercilessly,

It's a reminder, defying Nature's law isn't wise.

Strings of mind-boggling questions tangled up,

It's a reminder, its time to untangle.

Strange faces rush by,

It's a reminder, its time to learn them.

Callings unanswered,

It's a reminder, reflect on the necessity of it.

Words don't make sense?

It's time to change perspective, why should it make sense?

I understand, do you?

If you do, why would you?

Why is a raven like a writing desk?

Why can't it be?

Because it does not matter.

We all have our answers.

It's well kept in our writing desks.

Don't ask, don't tell....shhh... ;-)

Labels: Do you see it?

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Once bitten,

Twice shy.

Secret's hidden,

Killers lie.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The Mirrored Shadow

~Prologue~

She was panting heavily, trying to garner all the strength she has left to run as fast as she could in the dark woods, knowing that if she stops, she will never get away from it. She could hear its breathing, she could feel its desire to devour her. She had to find that place, she needed to get hold of that holy piece. She had no idea how it looked like, but she needed to find it nonetheless.

" What were you looking for?"

" I don't know, but I can't stop looking."

" Why? Aren't you tired of running?"

" Even so, I couldn't stop, its our only chance."

" You mean, its your only chance."

" What do you mean by that? I am not alone in this, shouldn't you be helping me too? You are as much a part of this as I am."

" You wish. I don't have to."

" I will find it, just you wait. I will save both of us."

" You don't have to, I am not afraid."

She saw a blast of blinding light ahead of her, this must be it. The enemy was close, she needed to hurry up. But she tripped, and it wasn't the woods anymore, she fell into the nothingness beneath, she couldn't see anything, the light blinded her eyes temporarily, she only knew that she was falling, falling deep and a deafening scream tore out of her throat as she fell deeper and deeper into the pit of darkness.

She woke up with a start. Beads of sweat formed on her forehead. She was panting heavily. Again. It happened again. This nightmare of hers. She ran into the bathroom to puke, it was nauseating. She has been afraid of height ever since that day, and the nightmare never stopped ever since that day. She washed her face and rinsed her mouth. That bitter taste on her tongue bugged her, it was not the best way to start a day. She looked into the mirror, inspecting the pale girl in the mirror, thinking if anyone can see the darkness in her, thinking if anyone can save her from the darkness engulfing her. She never felt more alone in her life. The pale looking girl with enlarged green pupils looked back at her, her black messy hair curled around her waist. She looked like she just spent a sleepless night. Well, it might have been better if that was the case.

" Claire, breakfast's ready." Mrs Alberich yelled from the dining room.

Elizabeth Sinclaire Alberich, preferred to be known as Claire, a 16 year old teenager, schooling in Oakville High, the only daughter of the well known Alberich family living the ancient mansion at the end of Oakville alley. The mansion was passed down generation by generation with history as old as Oakville itself. Mr Alberich is the owner of a massive business empire dealing with different business genres, so numerous that everyone in Oakville just acknowledged that he owns everything. Claire was so lucky, presumed by everyone, she wished that she feels that way too. If only they knew.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Death

What do you do when you land on a situation where you wanted to just run away from but you can't and you couldn't change anything to make anyone feel better?

What can you do when you are desperately looking for someone to blame but you can't find that person and you are left with more questions than ever?

What do you do when you are left to face the impending cruel fact?

That is death.

I've seen death when I was a lot younger. And all I know was that its an occasion that you just want to cry your heart out. That was when I didn't know how death will be there everyday since then. Now when I see death again, there is not a tear to spare because all I felt was numb and shocked. Tears everywhere. They were all mourning. I took it all in my eyes but I don't know what to do to make them feel better. I see black.

It was a great loss. He was a noble man. A well respected figure. Everybody was shocked that he left so swiftly without a warning and it was a terrible scene to withhold. I couldn't imagine how his daughter and son will get through this.

No one escapes death. Everybody knows that but when it happened,we were never ready for it. If there is something that can represent death, it will be a black teardrop.

It has been a while since I write here, it's holiday now, so a good time to start writing.

Yeah, I wrote something.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Time

Time is ticking, what will you do if you caught a glimpse of your hour glass?

Will you live like its the end of the world?

Will you tell anyone about it?

What is your last wish?

Will you leave alone and quietly?

Do you believe in after life?

I do.

I always wonder what happens next.

Do I feel like me after that?

Spirit is just a ball of energy, without a solid body, where will it go?

If men could travel through time, which point of your life will you change?

Or do you prefer not to and travel forward?

I prefer not to travel either ways.

What is life without an irreversible past?

Life is meaningless if the outcome is predictable and manipulable.

However, if I can see other's past, I want to witness history.

I want to go back to the time where buildings are just stones and legends are just ambitious men.

I want to meet Galileo, Beethoven, Queen Elizabeth, emperors of China and smack King Henry for being a womanizer.

I want to witness the Salem Witch Hunt and write stories that were never told from the witches' side.

Time, is what brings us here in this position.

Time, is the only art that no man can master.

We want to surpass time, but we never did,never will.

Why not let time ticks away and watch when history is being made?

Time, will never stop ticking anyway...

Sunday, July 24, 2011

It has ended at last. The character that I've grown up with, the fantasy that I secretly wish that I'm in, a world that never existed but exist so vividly in my dream. Harry Potter casted his last spell and put the famous magical war to an end, ending his epic magical journey which has brought so much wonder to the people in our world. How many times have we chanted "Expelliarmus", " Stupefy" and " Expecto Patronum"? How many times have we held our breath whenever a Death Eater yelled :"Avada Kadevra" ? I remember stepping into this Potter craze when I was 10, ever since then, I never looked back, raced to the nearest Popular bookstore to grab a copy of the newest Harry Potter book whenever J.K.Rowling penned yet another great addition to the series. J.K.Rowling has given me a dream, a beautiful world that I longed to live in. She is like a fairy god mother that granted my wish. I grew up with Harry Potter, we all did. We all imagined how it is like to be the boy wonder, to be magical. I remember waiting for the owl that never came to bring me an admission letter to Hogwarts. When it did not arrive, I asked myself over and over again, what have I done wrong that Dumbledore does not want me ? I am sure many asked the same thing, Hogwarts is better than any Ivy League schools, in my humble opinion.

And now, the boy wonder has grown up into a legend, he fought and won the battle. We anticipated and cheered for him. Now it feels so sad that we have to go on with our lives without him, he gave us the best battle to look forward to, and now its time to move on. Sure, there might be other books, but to me, none will be able to match this. Harry Potter will always be my favourite, I will always chant "Expecto patronum" when things get rough ( softly, not out loud, I'm no Luna). I wonder, can it be that " Expecto patronum" means expect the patron? Harry Potter did emphasize one theme throughout, its love that triumphs over evil in the end, loyalty of friends that Voldemort never had comes from love. Its a great story, a journey that we never regretted that we embarked ten years ago. How time flies...

Monday, July 18, 2011

When river flows, there is no stopping it, just as one cannot do anything over spilled milk.

Somehow, I can't help feeling that I should have done better, work harder.

Disappointment is like an unresolved debt which burdens the heart.

What else can I do but wait for a chance to redeem myself?

There is nothing more disheartening than coming home feeling that one could have done it differently.

As the river flows, sorrow follows, let the water washes away the dejection.

A new day will come, sunshine will reign.

It is not that bad after all.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Life unexpected.

Plan, predict, create, one can do all that and still fails to foresee the future.

Demand, hope, dream, one can only wish for the best but still life is loaded with overwhelming turns of event.

When the dawn fails to break and night prevails, coping is the only way through.

Dreamers are men of wisdom, they understand only through dreams, the heart is strong enough to carry on.

With dreams, come hope and longing, light will shine the way eventually.

Be strong my dear friends for one day, you will look back and realized how much you've grown.

One day, you will see your efforts are not in vain, they just bloomed late.

Look beyond, it is this unpredictable life that gives rise to millions of possibilities.

Everybody has their own stories to tell, believe that your story is worth telling because it is unforeseen,unexpected and unpredictable.

Labels: Look beyond

Saturday, June 18, 2011

A Man Like None Other

He is the first man who held me from the moment I come to live.

He is the first man who taught me how to see the world.

He was there to catch me when I fell from my bike.

He brought me to my first funfair and spun with me in a cup.

He is always around when I need him.

He is always supportive of my dreams.

He gave me everything that I ever wanted and is the only man I will turn to when I want something, even if it means defying my mother's wish XP

He is also the only guy who can make me shiver to my bones when he is upset.

He is a man whom I look up to when life gets harsh because he taught me how to charge through any obstacles with nothing but a lion heart.

He is like the Sun that keeps emanating warmth, faith and hope. So there is no darkness when he is with me for I know the dawn will break under his overwhelming faith.

Have I ever told you the reason I have always love the merry- go- round even though I am too old to ride it anymore?

It is because it reminds me of my childhood where you are in every part of it.

I fondly remember how excited you looked when you brought us to the merry- go- round and rode with us. No matter how many rounds the horses went, they will always bring me back to you, back to my family. I remember everything from my childhood because it is the happiest part of my life and I know you must have done so much to make it so.

Father,

I am not a child anymore but I will always want you to treat me like one because your boundless love makes me reluctant to grow up.

Selfishly, I want you to always be strong and healthy so that I can always be a baby :p

Given the opportunity, I will stand at the highest place I can find and shout at the top of my lungs to the world : Father, I love you so much and I am mighty proud to be your daughter!Long live the king !

I will move mountains for you because I know you would have done so without hesitation for me.

You are the best father in the whole wide world!

Happy Father's Day!

Counting the days until you come home......

Labels: Long Live the Lion King ^^

Friday, June 17, 2011

"Nobody sees a flower - really - it is so small it takes time - we haven't time - and to see takes time, like to have a friend takes time." Georgia O'Keeffe, so he says.

Many cross one's life, only a few will leave a mark. We enjoy the company of many acquaintances, however, how many will stay and listen to the sorrow of your heart or leap with joy at your success? We need not but one true friend to see past our disguise. We need not but one true friend who will think of us once in awhile even though we're far apart. It is easy to make acquaintances but difficult to turn it into friendships.

Having said that, I know how blessed I am to have not one, but many who walk with me and will continue to do so even when life gets in the way. It takes two hearts with the same understanding and emotional quantum to collide, causing an impact or bond. Hence forth, a friendship can only be formed naturally albeit not randomly, one can try but never to demand. I have not the knowledge of statistics to calculate the probability of forming a close-knit friendship with another person, but I know it must be extremely lucky of me to have done so with them.

Actually, I preached like a monk here because I am happy that a friend of mine bought me a pretty little gift even though there is no special occasion. I love irregularity in a regular day! We have not seen each other for quite awhile and she's having her holiday right now. Its so sweet of her to have thought of me, thank you so much!I'm feeling all fuzzy warm inside because of you, yeah you! :-P

I think I've just spoiled the solemnity of my writing by including the previous paragraph...oh well..I can't force my writings to sound serious when I'm in such a bubbly mood! " You know that I'm a crazy chick and I do what I want when I feel like it...(that's from Avril Lavigne's Smile, no, I'm not crazy but somehow this song comes into mind when I have nothing else to write :-) )

Labels: Butterfly

Sunday, May 15, 2011

I like windy day, where the clouds look heavy, threatening to splash water on the dry land but still waiting for the right moment to do so.

I like it when there are thunders once in a while, not too deafening, but just like a soft roar from an awakened lazy lion.

Some flashes of lightning maybe, because sometimes, at the right moment, they looked like lightings from a heavenly stage.

A soft breeze will compliment all the above, making it a perfect combination for a perfect day.

All these will be so welcomed, but no rain, there must be no rain, for it will be too wet and troublesome for people who needs to walk to and fro on the streets.

That's my idea of a nice day, weather that will make me too lazy to do anything that requires much work, where I can just sit and read, or just sleep, very soothing way to spend my holiday ^^

Labels: Lazy Day

Sunday, May 8, 2011

I'm dedicating this post for the very woman who influences me the most, and forever stands a considerable position in my heart, the very woman who makes me feel that nothing will ever be so wrong as long as she's by my side, the woman whose life revolves about me,my sisters and my dad but never asked for anything in return. The woman who always tends to our needs but neglects hers, always thinks that any scars that she bears are always worth it as long as we're happy, mother, this is for you.

Thank you for being here with me from the day I was born and never missed any moments of my life, be it big or small occasions.
Thank you for the time you've wasted in waiting for me to come to my senses when I'm being rebellious, obnoxious and inconsiderate.
Thank you for all the patience when I'm just unreasonably cranky and rude to you.
Thank you for your boundless love and faith in me.
Thank you for letting me expand my horizon and curiosity, and went as far as to accompany me when I'm doing that.
Thank you for all those scrumptious meals that await me everyday without fail, no matter how tired you may be.
Thank you for being my courage.

In science language, Robert Hooke once said cell is the basic unit of life. I have to object to that.

For me, my mother is the basic unit of my life, for without her, I wouldn't live to write all these. ( too dramatic, no? :P)

I said it often, but I know its barely enough, so I will say it again, Mother, I love you, so very much, and I wish for your well being. You are the star of my life, in return, I will always try to be the best thing that ever happened to you, other than father of course :P

Your wish, will always be my command, excluding the days when I'm being a brat of course :P hahaha

Happy Mother's Day to all the women who worked the hardest just to make their children happy, no words are enough to pen down the nobility of your love.

Labels: Endless Love

Saturday, May 7, 2011

I've just watched Definitely,Maybe. I love it, besides the main attraction of the movie: the cute little girl in that movie, the dashing and charming William and the beautiful woman April along with so many others, I love all the quirky quotes and how life isn't perfect. The main character in the movie made lots of mistakes, and he wasted so many years to get it right again. However, he learned a lot from life, and he found his happiness in the end. Of course the movie has a happy ending, if it ain't a happy ending, I wouldn't love that movie:P

Life isn't perfect, but in the end, there must be a happy ending which one finds solace from, that happy ending does not fit into everybody's expectations, it depends on the main character of that movie.

One thing for sure though, love always play a big part in crafting that happy ending. In this case, I would say, it is the love of his daughter that guides him into finding his happiness in the end. So, love can come in any forms, and they all work the same way, give the same effect, at least to me, it appears to be that way. Inevitable in one's life.

Now that's a very comforting fact, it means we will all find happiness, since love comes in so many forms, surely it will hardly miss any of us earthlings right?

Labels: Definitely, Maybe

Friday, May 6, 2011

Its time for a change.

The wind has blown from a new direction.

I have always love the wind, the way it makes me feel like it will always take away any anxieties I might have.

I feel different for the choices I have made in the past, I'm not so sure if its what I want, but I'm sure that I don't want to sit idle by and wait for the wind to settle down, because when it does, there's nothing more I can do.

There's always a point of no return, sometimes it brings peace as when there is nothing more to change, one can only settle down, its for the better.

I've done my part and had my adventure. Although things never quite go the way I planned, I had the time of my life when I've decided to follow the wind, to follow my desire to change.

Along the way, I have found the meaning behind these, and that is important to me, as I will have to live with that when I've made my choice. And all these unsettled feelings will go away once I have reached the point of no return.

When that happen, I'm going to accept what the wind has brought me, with the knowledge that I have tried my best, and that's all that matters. Things will be fine again, I'm sure of it.

To be or not to be, that has always been the question.

Labels: The Wind

All that happened in April..

When time is not a luxury, everything seems to be moving in a slower pace, and there is time to think about people that I miss and wish to spend more time with..

Well, all's well, I'm just a little nostalgic..

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I'm going out to catch a movie during a long break between lectures! Haha its nothing to be excited about, except this, its the first time I'm going out and have some fun BETWEEN lectures! There's always a first, I do hope that there will be no last minute cancellation, because it will be SOOO kill joy..We're gonna watch The Adjustment Bureau, the trailer looks interesting, I think it will not fail me ^^

Friday, February 18, 2011

Ever felt that time flies too fast, and things happened too fast, when you finally stop and catch your breath, suddenly you feel like you're missing something important? I miss my dad.. I know that he will be back soon, but I hate good byes. A lot can happen in a day, and when I finally finished what I'm supposed to do, I feel like I've missed the most important part of the day. Its like I'm seeing everything through a veil, I know what I must do, and where my responsibilities lie, so I did what I thought was the right thing to do but sometimes, all those just make me feel like reversing time and go back to when I don't have to make my own decisions. I like where I'm at right now, because I still stay true to my heart, but in a place full of masked men, how long can I stand without feeling lost in the end? It makes me think, why must people wear masks? Is it so hard to put your faith in someone? I believe everybody has their story which will explain their behavior, but maybe I should stop trying to understand those stories, is it how things work in the real world? Reminds me of a song called Something More. However, contrary to the lyrics, I do know what I'm fighting for, haha that's a relief.. I'm happy here, I can see there's a lot of things that I've never realized how important they are before. I guess I just haven't got used to the idea of being an adult. Time is ticking..there's so little time for me to take in so many stuff that matters most to me..You can't stop the time flowing just as you can't catch the sand..

Friday, January 21, 2011

Finally..from now on, I will be careful at what I eat +.+

These three weeks, I had been very busy with my university life, I had fun with my batchmates in THE orientation( 2 weeks), but at the same time, I was sick. Well, I guess I have no one to blame but myself because when the doctor asked me what I ate, my mind went blank..I have no idea at all..I ate anything that will ease my hunger..junk food, spicy food..I really have no idea..I know its weird for one to forget what one eats though..

Don't get me wrong, I wasn't food poisoned for 3 weeks..no no no, if I were, there will be nothing left in me but a mass of dry skin..eww..ok, please, don't picture what I just said.

OK, back to the topic, I think I skipped too many meals during orientation, my old friend, the Gastric stopped by recently and annoyed me terribly==

Just when I thought I got rid of it, on Monday 2am, I was food poisoned and the details, no one has to know. Arg!!

Anyway, I woke up at 7am on Monday, feeling dizzy. My mum just took one glance at me and insisted that I have to consult a doctor. So, after all the hassel, I went and collected my medicines from the doctor, then I drove to my university. I know I'm selfish for driving when I'm in such awkward condition but I couldn't skip the class because it is compulsory to attend lab sessions(severe consequences if I don't), and it was our first chemistry lab session in that university.. So I drove slowly and carefully ( really, mum, if you read this, believe me) and I'm still alive today, haha thank god. And, when I did my titration in lab, I couldn't read the burette at all, because I saw double images of the reading, hell, I couldn't even see the miniscus, however, I was lucky because that day we were doing it in pairs, so my lab partner helped me to read it while I did the titration. So I only had to focus in not overshooting the ethanoic acid. I missed my foursome in Taylors a lot while I did the lab work. All the lab equipments and benches, though they are different now, while I was laughing with my current lab partner, I thought of how Yasmin, Kelly and Wei Ling used to do that with me too..Ok, enough..I'll see them again.Definitely, right?

Seriously, I need to sleep early. I need to finish my lab report and home assignments. Now, I miss my holiday..people, slap me if I say I am bored with my holidays..its not true..

Monday, January 3, 2011

First day of school. I don't have words here. Seriously, I'm tempted to copy and paste the agenda of the day straight from the IMU website here. There are pictures though.. and my heels are killing me. It doesn't hurt if I didn't have to climb up and down the stairs from the parking area at the hill top then crossed the road and watched out for elevators. ( why do they have elevators in the building? why not just build enough lifts or stairs? I hate elevators and I practically have to hold my breathe everytime I cross it!) Let's call it a day, I'm tired from all the marathon and speeches..you know how first day is usually like...I'm looking forward to tomorrow though, I have two weeks of orientation. I wonder how its like..

Saturday, January 1, 2011

The first day of my new year was a blast, only two words to describe it: sparks fly!

And you wouldn't have guessed why, and its not something you get to see everyday.

Well, it started out like this, I was watching One Tree Hill comfortably on the couch after a long day out while waiting for the clock to tick away year 2010 and welcoming year 2011. So I was crying for the death of Quentin Fields, a character in the drama and kept thinking why he had to die. Then I was listening to Taylor Swift's new song called " Haunted". It seems to be a bad time since its new year and I was what, marveling at those unlucky words..Suddenly, in the midst of my tears, the lights went off, I was freaking out cause I thought the song has its effect, the word "haunted" kept popping into my mind. Just when I was about to run up to my bedroom, I heard some crackling sound and saw fire sparks.For a split of second, I was puzzled and thought why is there fire crackers in my house. Then I choked at the sight of the source. The fuse box was on fire..after the fire sparks, the fire stayed on and were eating the plastic casing.. I was dumbstruck, stood there stupidly admiring the red yellowish flame for a few seconds before I realized that I should be waking my mum. She put out the fire, called my neighbour who can fix this. So I slept at 3 in the morning that night( or was it morning? dawn probably,see how deprived of sleep I am?), watching the uncle worked with the fuse box with my sleepy eyes while my mum was chatting away with my neighbour at how lucky that I was up late that night, I guess you can call it new year luck.Haha

So there, as I was saying, what a blast, my world went black on the first day of 2011 after a sizzling fire.Happy New Year! Haha sparks fly...literally.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

This is the last week. And I'm just writing for the sake of writing, because I really don't have anything better to do right now. Looking back, I wonder if I could have done more in the past six months. I wonder if I've just thrown away a good six months of my life doing nothing. Yeah, I worked, I learned a bit of French, did a hospital attachment, but I also wasted most of my days sitting in my bedroom, watching dramas. Some of the days, I was sitting on the exact same spot from morning till night, except for the time when I took my bath and eat, you get the idea. That's not really a way to spend six months isn't it? Funny, on any other time, I would have been really busy with school work or exams. Now come to think of it, maybe that's all my life is about, school and exams. Without it, its a bit too empty. People can save the world in six months, or six minutes. The point is, I would be proud if I can say I found myself in these six months, its a self-discovering holiday for me. Sadly, its not. I still don't know what I want from life. I still don't know what can I fight for, other than just studying. So here I am, still waiting for the epiphany to dawn on me, if there's any.I know I whine a lot, but that's just what we do right? Young folks who know nothing about the world, the bad economy, the recession and the fear of no tomorrow..excuse me but I'm just gonna get back to my bedroom and continue moping till I find out that I can save the world or that I have a letter from Hogwarts.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

There's a lot I can say or more precisely, write here, but I think its sufficient to say I'm happy for you. You have done well. Honestly, as your sister, I don't think it matters much to me, I'm not assessing you in any way, no matter what both of you do, you guys will always be my little sisters and you guys don't have to prove anything to me. However, I feel that I did not express myself properly when you told me how well you did, both of you actually as both of you have been through this, and twice I did not show enough appreciation or encouragement for your efforts. Besides, it will be weird if I ask for a hug now. I can only say that both of you make me a proud sister, this will never change, I will always be grateful to have two great sisters.Congratulations again. I should have said it to your faces, but its awkward to say so, so I wrote it here: I love both of you, always and forever.

ps: you will not hear it from me, I am only this sentimental when I write. hahaha *wink*