Thursday, October 2, 2014
4:01 PM
It all begins with a small wish, which became a bigger dream, and finally a loud reality.
I have never thought that one day I will be sitting here, writing my own page which started from something more than coincidence. With efforts from my love ones and much encouragement from people who cares genuinely woven together with my desire to try something new, my journey may have just begun but the sail was set years ago. Everything happens for a reason, I believe in fate, and not coincidence. There is always a silver lining to every dark clouds, the key is to find it. No matter how dark the night can be, the dawn will always break in a short while. Find the hidden joy behind every misery perceived. It is all just the matter of perception, for there is no dark without the light, no sorrow without joy. To live and to cherish, that is the only thing that matters most, for nothing is more precious than being able to breathe. A friend reminded me that life is precious, but also too short. To live like there is no tomorrow, I can't do that. It requires one to give up the hope for a better tomorrow, which goes against everything I believe in, To live without hope isn't living. So instead of living like there is no tomorrow, I opt to cherish each day I'm breathing, to remember each friend I have made, to love and to care as much as I can. I am grateful for what I have.
Stay true to your heart..*
Friday, June 13, 2014
7:06 PM
Dear Blog,
It has been awhile since I wrote here. I am overwhelmed with feelings right now, mixed feelings. Mostly blues. After two years, today will be the last time I sat here writing. One does not bid their homes goodbyes easily. I will never be good at this. I have been trying hard not to think about this. But at this moment, the final night, I can't help feeling sad. I am gonna miss everything here. The small but cozy room. The kitchen and the chatter. The friendly neighbours. My beloved housemates, who became my soul mates. I will miss talking to them everyday, cooking meals together, even doing laundry together. This place is filled with memories that I will never forget. I only wish that from this day onwards, life will bring us good surprises and distance will make our hearts grow fonder, bringing us closer. Farewell my cosy, quint little flat. Take care, all my friends. I am gonna miss you, giraffe.
Last message from James Blyth Court Flat F6, Glasgow.
14/6/2014, Love Always.
Stay true to your heart..*
Saturday, January 18, 2014
6:57 AM
The Lion King Musical 2013
17/1/2014 - A childhood dream comes true!
Finally, the day arrived where I would be watching the musical I have been waiting for. The Lion King has always been my favourite Disney movie since I was a kid. The heavily family themed movie has always move me to tears, I just can't believe my luck when I purchased the tickets. I was so thrilled, couldn't take my eyes off the stage. The Circle of Life, which is the opening theme for the musical sends chills down my spine when Rafiki sang it aloud, with all the resonating vocals and other animals appeared down the stage and slowly moved to the stage. I was so excited throughout the musical. Although I know the story like the back of my hand, the scene where Mufasa died while saving Simba still never failed to put me in tears. The singers sang the song to perfection, with all the African coloured costumes and dancing, I felt like I was in Africa. It was a once in a life time experience that I wouldn't miss for the world. I especially love the reflection of Simba when Mufasa told him to remember who he is, the techniques used to portray that reflection was so mind boggling! I think this is the best show I have ever seen! How I wish I could see it again : D I will never forget the show!
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, November 4, 2013
4:26 PM
As the night grows cooler, the warm little space I call home now appears to lose it's warmth.
As the day turns darker, the void grows bigger.
As I give myself more reasons to smile, the more they sound like excuses.
Forced and like a sound rule, I am obliged to obey these reasons.
Because what's life without laughter? What's living without smiling?
Who will stay with me after removing my mask?
Who will stay long enough to hear the whispers of my heart?
I wish this joy will last but I have a bad habit of fearing every good in my life.
As if they will never last.
But I still wish for eternity. I will not stop believing.
Stay true to your heart..*
Saturday, October 19, 2013
3:20 PM
Begin Again.
A rainy day can make me feel trapped sometimes. Sometimes, I would love to dance under the rain, I wouldn't mind getting soaked. But when I'm in one of those moods, the sky rather mirroring my inner feelings. I woke up feeling rather bright but as the day gets by, everything turned grey. I ought to search if there are any papers published on the correlation between weather and moods. I just miss home. I miss my mom's cooking, my dad's lame jokes and my sisters' crazy cuteness. When I'm not moving about and getting things done, I'm a self pity piece of crap. This says something, I should keep myself busy. Been spending the whole day moping about.. I don't even know why I'm unhappy today. What a complete waste of time. I wish I could re-live today so that I can make it a better day. I hate it when I'm wasting a good day feeling bad.
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, September 30, 2013
12:57 PM
I've always believe that everything happens for a reason, one may yet to grasp the meaning behind it but it always happens for a good reason. I always tell myself that when the small voice in my head asked "why me?". It worked numerous time in the past, but now it leads to self doubt. I do not want to dwell on negativity like that, but lately I feel everything is beyond me. This uncertainty that used to motivate me, that make me believe that everything is possible seems to make me question my self worth lately. I am after all insignificant in this massive space full of life. What I do or don't, does it really matter? I have always believed that one's fate is carved in one's hand, in every decision that's made along the way. Have I been mistaken all along? Is one's fate woven since birth then? I let my thoughts dwell too far in the dark place. I know pretty well as soon as these words left my lips that I don't believe in that for a second. I know the answer I am seeking for is there, somehow things will brighten up along the way if I try harder. I am just tired of having to keep trying, just for tonight, I want to let the weak,pathetic voice of exasperation in my head win the on-going war within. I can never get what I want by asking why, I just have to keep trying. I just need to keep asking myself what else can I do instead. I just have to deal with it like how I used to. I just need to be stronger than before. I just wish that I don't have to keep putting up a brave face above this turmoil I'm feeling. Sometimes, I just need a hug. Only sometimes. After all, I want to be brave.
Stay true to your heart..*
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
10:43 PM
Never look back.
The past . present. future.
Memories made are often grasped white knuckled.
One hold on to the glorious yesterdays, as it were gold or magic.
Stories told and remembered.
However, let it be known, they are nothing more than remnants of the past,
clutched too strongly by Vanity.
Have you ever tried catching the wind using bare hands?
One feels it's presence, but unable to share nor pass it to another.
Nor can one catch the same wind for every new touch creates a new story, it can never be the same.
The ones that landed softly on the same palm were blown far away by the new breeze.
So grasp not the glory, but the joy it left and move on.
The glory was never the gold, but the joy is.
The magic was never the past, but the determination to recreate.
Likewise, mistakes made are often buried deep within.
One does not speak of it but it lingers on like a ghost hunger for vengeance.
Mistakes made left marks in every shadow.
One feels their presence, but unwilling to share nor pass it to another.
Nor does one wish to add new shadows to every waking steps made.
The ones that subsided heavily in the heart will never be removed, amends attempted but scars will never be healed completely.
Mistakes sank just as anchors sank to the bottom of the ocean.
So cling on not the mistakes, but the guilt it left and move on.
The mistakes were never the chastisement, but the guilt is.
The mission was never to live mistake free, but to live with unburdened conscience.
Vanity or Sanity?
I am only sane when I need to be.
I am only vain when I have to be.
I am only me when I have both.
I am only perfect when I am imperfect.
Stay true to your heart..*
Sunday, June 16, 2013
1:20 PM
It's been like a roller coaster ride, I'm working and I don't quite know how to pen it down, as my thoughts are everywhere. But I've decided to write this because I want to relive this bit of memory when I read this post again, sometime in future. To know that I am doing something other than the usuals, to learn and push myself more than I ever thought I can. This moment I am doing something I have been dreaming of doing, but never actually give much thought of how to do it. So this is how I learn, just like riding a roller coaster, hop on it and hope that if you make it until the end, you will get that gigantic sense of liberation because you survived. And that this moment will be the moment you remember for the rest of your life because this is where it begins.
Stay true to your heart..*
Friday, May 31, 2013
5:14 PM
Good bye, my dear cozy little space.
I will miss you! I have spent countless laughter, secrets sharing sessions, burnt midnight oils, the good and the bad times here, you're like mine already, but pity, you're not.
Now some one lucky shall enjoy the sweet little space I called privacy here.
I took care of you like you're mine, so I hope the next lucky lodger will love you like I do.
It's time to turn a new page.
It's time for a change.
But I shall miss you, my home sweet home in Glasgow.
I don't want to know who the next lodger is, but I know I'm the first lodger who lives here since you're refurbished. So in my heart, you're always mine.
Stay true to your heart..*
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
6:18 PM
I dreamed a dream where I am never falling.
Confident of what I am doing,
Because I always answer my heart's calling.
Where my love ones are always cheering.
When I stop my day dreaming,
I know my love ones are still encouraging.
So why am I still worrying?
When it's time to get moving.
A garden for bad writing,
But I ain't here entertaining.
Knowing that I'll be back for real hugging,
To be my love ones' darling,
That's what keep me going.
Stay true to your heart..*
Friday, April 26, 2013
3:55 PM
I was not expecting anything. I knew weeks ago that I will not have the leisure to enjoy the day because I had two assessments nearing and the fact that it was the first time I had to do it alone, without the company of my family made it all bleak and grey to me. So I embraced myself for a lonely day weeks ago. It was not sad at all, I told myself. I had an awesome time in Paris and I got to see my childhood dreams materialized in front of my very eyes in Disneyland, that alone, was the best gift my family gave me, a gift from God. So I assumed that the very day would be a quiet one, I have to keep my mind focus on what's important, birthdays, it happens every year, what's so special about it anyway? Expecting a celebration would be greedy, so I told myself. I kept telling myself that it's only another ordinary day, a lie I had to tell myself because I couldn't let myself acknowledge that deep in my heart, I know this is no ordinary day. This will be the day I miss my family most because from the day I was born, I have never faced this day alone. It isn't special because it's my birthday, it's special for me because it's the first day I met my parents. It's the day I started becoming the first born in my family, I tried so hard to ignore the fact that my birthday was approaching since April because I don't want to wallow in sadness and longing for my parents' embrace.
But I am blessed with wonderful friends and family. My family, though they are far away from me, they made me felt like they were just right beside me, like it used to be every year before. I love you Daddy, Mummy and my cute, beautiful nuts sisters :P Amidst my ignorant childish depression, my friends surprised me and helped me regained my composure, they helped me through my homesick and let me find my cheerful side again. From the struck of the first note of a birthday song secretly planned by a quiet genius, the absolutely unexpected ambush by my door at midnight, the beautiful handmade cake, the terrific Thai dinner, the even more breathtaking, merry celebration with yet, another lovely cake and lastly, the patience of my lovely friends in accompanying me to indulge in a movie night (they were exhausted but yet they let me dragged their poor, tired body to a midnight movie :D), I am absolutely lost for words. I really do not know how to pen down my gratitude to their kindness. I will try my best to be there for each of you, as best as I can afford to, for I can never forget how you guys made me feel that day, so magical and completely wiped of my previous assumption of a sad, gloomy day. I thank God for letting me indulge in all these happiness, all these joy, I thought I am too greedy to ask for it, but you guys let me, enabled me to be greedy. For that, I love all of you. 24th of April 2013, I will never forget this day. Because it made me realized that home is where friends and family are. Right now, home is in both my birth country and here, because I have great friends here. Home is in my heart, where all the love live.
Stay true to your heart..*
Sunday, February 24, 2013
2:57 PM
It has been awhile since I last written a blog post..that's because I am overwhelmed with the surprises life has given me. There is so much to see, so much to listen, so much to feel, so much to learn and so much to grow..Happiness, an emotion accompanied with the simplicity life offers which used to bask me like the warmth of sunlight. My happiness used to be perfect, used to be pure and complete. Now I am still blessed but my happiness is no longer simple.
Each joy I feel here, masks the regret I cannot erase, the regret that I cannot share it with my love ones.
Every blissful journey I have completed, my guilt follows for I know it does not come easy.
One too many merriment makes a guilt-ridden night.
Each picturesque sight overwhelms me with delight and the longing desire to share it with my love ones.
Each joy brings me close to tears, tears of joy, tears of regret and tears of longing.
My happiness now is always complexed with a melancholy tone, unintentionally and not exactly detestable.
I appreciate the pang of guilt and gloom happiness brings now, because that is my constant companion now, that is a new experience for me, that is what makes me human, so flawed and incomplete yet real. Life is complex. The day I no longer feel the guilt is the day I stop appreciating life, stop appreciating what I am given and stop believing that I can change for the better. I hope I am living life properly, doing it correctly.
Life is precious, I hope I will not fail it.
Stay true to your heart..*
Thursday, November 22, 2012
3:41 PM
Lone Warrior
She who fights wise knows
not the enemy, only the danger .
She is drained, in
this eternal rain.
Refused to be slain,
she searched in vain.
Playing this game, for
the hope that never came.
She holds on tight,
through the rising tide.
Gazing at the family
crest, longing for the rest.
To have fought, like a
torn soldier,
She never forgets, for she did not regret.
She dwells in solitary, as a lone ranger.
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, October 29, 2012
3:19 PM
The World From The Eyes of A Child
Once, the world was as big as a chocolate bar gets.
Where the most important thing is to keep the candies safe.
Mom and Dad were the greatest figures in your life.
Friends were your secret keepers and partners to world where no adults can reach.
Everything about you was magnified.
When you cry, you feel that the world is crumbling down at your feet.
When you laugh, you feel that the world is a better place because of that.
There is no sad endings, only happily ever after.
For you are always the one that make the final choice.
You matter, as you are the centre where the earth is revolving around.
Two decades later, things are not quite the same.
You feel that the world is so big, you can't bear the weight.
You don't know which is more important, dignity or vanity.
You never trust your friends as you don't know if they are really your friends.
Everything about you is diminished.
Simply because no one cares.
When you cry, you cry alone while the world continues.
When you laugh, you know this moment changes only you, not the world.
There is unending unknowns, where happy endings may only occur in fairy tales.
You wish that you could make the final choice, and make it right.
You want to matter to the world, but the world is simply too big to notice you.
For me, my Mom and Dad are still the greatest figures in my life, and I still trust my friends, so there, I grasped a tiny piece of childhood with me, amidst this vastly crazy world.
Funny thing human mind is. It changes so much, in so little time.
A child thinks everything matters only because she is here.
An adult wishes that she matters when she takes part in it.
Incredible when you look at the world through the eyes of a child, for adults lose the magic to look at it right.
Adults lose the magic any child would have gladly given out.
Faith.
Stay true to your heart..*
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
12:31 PM
Do thou know thy words leave marks?
Words are means of communications among humans, just as howling to wolves.
Some words were sent out well, thus joyous feelings borne to it.
Some words were harsh but mean well, thus beneficial to the bearer.
Some words were medicines to the ailing heart, thus soothing to the recipient.
Some words were meant to entertain, thus holding no values.
Some words were sugar coated poison, unbeknownst to the receiver, but painfully throbbing at the heart when revealed.
Some words were wise, when the listener discovers the wisdom.
When do thou believeth?
Spoken words are like nails planted on the fence.
Remove it by all means, it will leave ugly holes.
Wise men choose their words carefully, as they are aware of the weight it carries.
Fools spit it out irresponsibly, disregarding the consequences.
Scheming folks speak deliberately, meaning to hurt upon their selection, leaving others bewildered.
Laymen speak casually, leaving the heavy bits out, avoiding any troubles.
None the wiser. Do thou speak or not now? Are thou familiar with the art of words?
I for one, am the ordinary layman, who chose not to deal with heavy bits, for I am unable to carry the weight it holds. What is your choice?
Stay true to your heart..*
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
3:08 PM
Can you see me?
Frozen in a time where reality and dream are inseparable, I couldn't tell if I'm awake or asleep.
I am seeing the world from a different perspective but I don't feel it.
I am landing but not settling.
I am present but detached.
I am but a projection of what I want others to see.
Can you see the truth beneath the shadow?
The missing part is well hidden, but it's there, for I can feel it.
I shunned away from revelation because of the darkness concealed.
Connection through the heart yearns more than just honesty, it is intuition that finds the match.
Nothing shall be spoken if nothing is seen.
What will be, will be.
Only the heart can tell.
How do you see but not seeing, speak but not reaching?
Neither elated nor depressed, for there is none to be felt.
It is like swimming in the sea, numb by the endless immensity.
I can't feel because there is too much, I can't contain it.
Where will I put myself on a scale of life?
I am neither here nor there, I am just detached.
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, October 1, 2012
3:33 PM
Home
A place you return to everyday,
and so you forget to be thankful for it unconsciously.
You never appreciate the scent of it , you unwittingly disregard it.
The small yet familiar space you share with the most precious people in your life.
The world seems more interesting , you wanted to explore outside so badly.
You are impatient to spread your wings and try your first fly.
Away from the familiarity.
Away from the ordinary.
Away from the known.
Away from home.
Expectation is a magnificent thing.
It gives one so much motivations.
And yet, it can be heart breakingly cruel.
You got what you want, but it isn't always what you wish for.
New is attractive, but familiarity is what everyone search for.
People wish for great things to happen.
Then you realized, what you were searching for,
The feeling that you belonged,
Everything great is right here,
At home.
The world may be greater, but home is the only place that gives thee warmth.
Away from home teaches one many.
Among them, the most valued lesson will be to appreciate one's home.
Away from home humbles one's young and ambitious heart, such as mine.
The world is enormous, so enormous that you can't be seen.
However, home is where you don't have to be big enough to be seen.
Because everybody sees you, loves you for you.
This land I'm standing, is beautiful.
It is everything I ever wanted.
It is exciting to be here.
But it will never be my home.
I know in my heart, no matter how long I may be here,
home is where my family is.
Stay true to your heart..*
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
2:37 PM
The other side of my world.
As we parted, I dare not look back for I know, no matter how longing I might be feeling, there is no turning back. I walked swiftly because I couldn't bear to stop and think that from this moment, I will be walking further from you. Further from your warm embrace, from my home.
Dear Green Place.
Each day I spent here, I learnt something new. I found ways to keep my heart contented.
I found joy in daily basis.
This is a beautiful place, so I am grateful for being here.
Night.
I longed for the moments we shared.
I wished that we could count the stars together.
I prayed that you will be well each and every day.
I am thankful that I never took you for granted.
I am aware that this is neither easy nor light for each of us.
I walk solely for the purpose of enrichment.
I traveled in the blessings of my loved ones.
I live knowing that I will return as a changed person.
My dear sweet home,
Please wait for me patiently, be well while I embarked on my quest of soul searching.
One day, it will end in colours.
For dreams do come true.
I miss you dearly, my lovely family.
Stay true to your heart..*
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
5:21 AM
It is time. I am afraid of solitary, but it seems that I have chosen to be, I can't believe that I am about to leave everything behind. To walk alone without my family. All I can think of now is how home sick I will get. Forget about the other things I have to do on my own, I just can't imagine not talking to my family in person. Grow up isn't that fun at all, come to think of it. If I could, I wanna be a child forever. For the record, I am excited as well. It's complicated. I want to be a better person. This trip holds endless possibilities, I hope I play all my cards well. This is the right decision. I can only hope.
Stay true to your heart..*
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
9:45 AM
There are times when sleeping is irrelevant to me. It's a complete waste of time. Or so I thought.
Lately, there's been a change of habit. I find myself sleeping earlier during my study break, and during my exam. What made me give up the idea of burning midnight oil in the first place, I really do not know. I was only thinking that I had enough, so have to cut my brain some slack and just sleep. It has never happened before. It has always been like a pre-war time for me in the past during study break, but this time, I didn't insist in forcing myself to do what my brain thinks otherwise. I enjoyed my study break and studied at my own leisure. As my result is pending, I hope this is a good change. I do hope I'm doing the right thing, because I really feel better this way, no matter how many times I repressed it in the past, I love sleeping haha so staying true to nature's course, I feel great!
In contrary, I have nothing to do right now but I refuse to sleep early, for a very justified course. I appreciate each minute of my waking time being here with my family. Sleeping takes away my precious, numbered days with them. I enjoy being awake, being here, albeit alone as they are sleeping. I know I'll miss being so close to them, just a knock of door away. Miles and seas will come in the way soon, but I have nothing to fear if I have them close in my heart. I chose this, sometimes I wonder why again, but I know I have no regrets. I know I will always have them with me no matter where I lay my feet on.
Contemplating about the importance of sleeping, discussing my sleeping patterns, I really am odd.
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, July 16, 2012
9:41 AM
Greatness.
It is not defined by how many great things one has done.
Not defined by how little mistakes one committed on the course of life.
Not defined by how people perceived one's works.
It is but achieved when one valued the entire course of event as equally as the result of it.
It is when one has done the right thing, changed the world for even one single soul.
It is when one has done all he can, and live with little to regret.
It is when one can face his failure with nothing but a humble heart.
When one stops counting the winnings and loss.
Ergo realizes that greatness has no measure, for it is not for one to measure.
Do not live for greatness, for greatness lives in you.
Stay true to your heart..*
Friday, July 13, 2012
3:13 AM
Right now, I am too tired to write anything remotely interesting here. Flash news: I am free from the tangles of exams! I finished my second year and is having fun watching the clock runs while I hold still right now. I am going to learn how to cook from the best cook of the world starting from today :D I just spent half of my day on internet, making changes to my blog, looks good? That's it. Signing out :P
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, January 16, 2012
9:24 AM
What do you see?
Hammer pounding mercilessly, It's a reminder, defying Nature's law isn't wise.
Strings of mind-boggling questions tangled up,
It's a reminder, its time to untangle.
Strange faces rush by,
It's a reminder, its time to learn them.
Callings unanswered,
It's a reminder, reflect on the necessity of it.
Words don't make sense?
It's time to change perspective, why should it make sense?
I understand, do you?
If you do, why would you?
Why is a raven like a writing desk?
Why can't it be?
Because it does not matter.
We all have our answers.
It's well kept in our writing desks.
Don't ask, don't tell....shhh... ;-)
Labels: Do you see it?
Stay true to your heart..*
Saturday, December 10, 2011
10:53 PM
Once bitten, Twice shy.
Secret's hidden,
Killers lie.
Stay true to your heart..*
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
9:12 PM
~Prologue~
She was panting heavily, trying to garner all the strength she has left to run as fast as she could in the dark woods, knowing that if she stops, she will never get away from it. She could hear its breathing, she could feel its desire to devour her. She had to find that place, she needed to get hold of that holy piece. She had no idea how it looked like, but she needed to find it nonetheless.
" What were you looking for?"
" I don't know, but I can't stop looking."
" Why? Aren't you tired of running?"
" Even so, I couldn't stop, its our only chance."
" You mean, its your only chance."
" What do you mean by that? I am not alone in this, shouldn't you be helping me too? You are as much a part of this as I am."
" You wish. I don't have to."
" I will find it, just you wait. I will save both of us."
" You don't have to, I am not afraid."
She saw a blast of blinding light ahead of her, this must be it. The enemy was close, she needed to hurry up. But she tripped, and it wasn't the woods anymore, she fell into the nothingness beneath, she couldn't see anything, the light blinded her eyes temporarily, she only knew that she was falling, falling deep and a deafening scream tore out of her throat as she fell deeper and deeper into the pit of darkness.
She woke up with a start. Beads of sweat formed on her forehead. She was panting heavily. Again. It happened again. This nightmare of hers. She ran into the bathroom to puke, it was nauseating. She has been afraid of height ever since that day, and the nightmare never stopped ever since that day. She washed her face and rinsed her mouth. That bitter taste on her tongue bugged her, it was not the best way to start a day. She looked into the mirror, inspecting the pale girl in the mirror, thinking if anyone can see the darkness in her, thinking if anyone can save her from the darkness engulfing her. She never felt more alone in her life. The pale looking girl with enlarged green pupils looked back at her, her black messy hair curled around her waist. She looked like she just spent a sleepless night. Well, it might have been better if that was the case.
" Claire, breakfast's ready." Mrs Alberich yelled from the dining room.
Elizabeth Sinclaire Alberich, preferred to be known as Claire, a 16 year old teenager, schooling in Oakville High, the only daughter of the well known Alberich family living the ancient mansion at the end of Oakville alley. The mansion was passed down generation by generation with history as old as Oakville itself. Mr Alberich is the owner of a massive business empire dealing with different business genres, so numerous that everyone in Oakville just acknowledged that he owns everything. Claire was so lucky, presumed by everyone, she wished that she feels that way too. If only they knew.
Stay true to your heart..*
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
10:09 PM
What do you do when you land on a situation where you wanted to just run away from but you can't and you couldn't change anything to make anyone feel better?What can you do when you are desperately looking for someone to blame but you can't find that person and you are left with more questions than ever?
What do you do when you are left to face the impending cruel fact?
That is death.
I've seen death when I was a lot younger. And all I know was that its an occasion that you just want to cry your heart out. That was when I didn't know how death will be there everyday since then. Now when I see death again, there is not a tear to spare because all I felt was numb and shocked. Tears everywhere. They were all mourning. I took it all in my eyes but I don't know what to do to make them feel better. I see black.
It was a great loss. He was a noble man. A well respected figure. Everybody was shocked that he left so swiftly without a warning and it was a terrible scene to withhold. I couldn't imagine how his daughter and son will get through this.
No one escapes death. Everybody knows that but when it happened,we were never ready for it. If there is something that can represent death, it will be a black teardrop.
Stay true to your heart..*
It has been a while since I write here, it's holiday now, so a good time to start writing. Yeah, I wrote something.
Stay true to your heart..*
Sunday, August 7, 2011
8:53 AM
TimeTime is ticking, what will you do if you caught a glimpse of your hour glass?
Will you live like its the end of the world?
Will you tell anyone about it?
What is your last wish?
Will you leave alone and quietly?
Do you believe in after life?
I do.
I always wonder what happens next.
Do I feel like me after that?
Spirit is just a ball of energy, without a solid body, where will it go?
If men could travel through time, which point of your life will you change?
Or do you prefer not to and travel forward?
I prefer not to travel either ways.
What is life without an irreversible past?
Life is meaningless if the outcome is predictable and manipulable.
However, if I can see other's past, I want to witness history.
I want to go back to the time where buildings are just stones and legends are just ambitious men.
I want to meet Galileo, Beethoven, Queen Elizabeth, emperors of China and smack King Henry for being a womanizer.
I want to witness the Salem Witch Hunt and write stories that were never told from the witches' side.
Time, is what brings us here in this position.
Time, is the only art that no man can master.
We want to surpass time, but we never did,never will.
Why not let time ticks away and watch when history is being made?
Time, will never stop ticking anyway...
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Sunday, July 24, 2011
5:56 AM
It has ended at last. The character that I've grown up with, the fantasy that I secretly wish that I'm in, a world that never existed but exist so vividly in my dream. Harry Potter casted his last spell and put the famous magical war to an end, ending his epic magical journey which has brought so much wonder to the people in our world. How many times have we chanted "Expelliarmus", " Stupefy" and " Expecto Patronum"? How many times have we held our breath whenever a Death Eater yelled :"Avada Kadevra" ? I remember stepping into this Potter craze when I was 10, ever since then, I never looked back, raced to the nearest Popular bookstore to grab a copy of the newest Harry Potter book whenever J.K.Rowling penned yet another great addition to the series. J.K.Rowling has given me a dream, a beautiful world that I longed to live in. She is like a fairy god mother that granted my wish. I grew up with Harry Potter, we all did. We all imagined how it is like to be the boy wonder, to be magical. I remember waiting for the owl that never came to bring me an admission letter to Hogwarts. When it did not arrive, I asked myself over and over again, what have I done wrong that Dumbledore does not want me ? I am sure many asked the same thing, Hogwarts is better than any Ivy League schools, in my humble opinion.
And now, the boy wonder has grown up into a legend, he fought and won the battle. We anticipated and cheered for him. Now it feels so sad that we have to go on with our lives without him, he gave us the best battle to look forward to, and now its time to move on. Sure, there might be other books, but to me, none will be able to match this. Harry Potter will always be my favourite, I will always chant "Expecto patronum" when things get rough ( softly, not out loud, I'm no Luna). I wonder, can it be that " Expecto patronum" means expect the patron? Harry Potter did emphasize one theme throughout, its love that triumphs over evil in the end, loyalty of friends that Voldemort never had comes from love. Its a great story, a journey that we never regretted that we embarked ten years ago. How time flies...
Stay true to your heart..*
Monday, July 18, 2011
8:08 AM
When river flows, there is no stopping it, just as one cannot do anything over spilled milk.Somehow, I can't help feeling that I should have done better, work harder.
Disappointment is like an unresolved debt which burdens the heart.
What else can I do but wait for a chance to redeem myself?
There is nothing more disheartening than coming home feeling that one could have done it differently.
As the river flows, sorrow follows, let the water washes away the dejection.
A new day will come, sunshine will reign.
It is not that bad after all.
Stay true to your heart..*
Sunday, July 3, 2011
1:50 AM
Life unexpected.Plan, predict, create, one can do all that and still fails to foresee the future.
Demand, hope, dream, one can only wish for the best but still life is loaded with overwhelming turns of event.
When the dawn fails to break and night prevails, coping is the only way through.
Dreamers are men of wisdom, they understand only through dreams, the heart is strong enough to carry on.
With dreams, come hope and longing, light will shine the way eventually.
Be strong my dear friends for one day, you will look back and realized how much you've grown.
One day, you will see your efforts are not in vain, they just bloomed late.
Look beyond, it is this unpredictable life that gives rise to millions of possibilities.
Everybody has their own stories to tell, believe that your story is worth telling because it is unforeseen,unexpected and unpredictable.
Labels: Look beyond
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Saturday, June 18, 2011
11:05 PM
A Man Like None Other
He is the first man who held me from the moment I come to live.
He is the first man who taught me how to see the world.
He was there to catch me when I fell from my bike.
He brought me to my first funfair and spun with me in a cup.
He is always around when I need him.
He is always supportive of my dreams.
He gave me everything that I ever wanted and is the only man I will turn to when I want something, even if it means defying my mother's wish XP
He is also the only guy who can make me shiver to my bones when he is upset.
He is a man whom I look up to when life gets harsh because he taught me how to charge through any obstacles with nothing but a lion heart.
He is like the Sun that keeps emanating warmth, faith and hope. So there is no darkness when he is with me for I know the dawn will break under his overwhelming faith.
Have I ever told you the reason I have always love the merry- go- round even though I am too old to ride it anymore?
It is because it reminds me of my childhood where you are in every part of it.
I fondly remember how excited you looked when you brought us to the merry- go- round and rode with us. No matter how many rounds the horses went, they will always bring me back to you, back to my family. I remember everything from my childhood because it is the happiest part of my life and I know you must have done so much to make it so.
Father,
I am not a child anymore but I will always want you to treat me like one because your boundless love makes me reluctant to grow up.
Selfishly, I want you to always be strong and healthy so that I can always be a baby :p
Given the opportunity, I will stand at the highest place I can find and shout at the top of my lungs to the world : Father, I love you so much and I am mighty proud to be your daughter!Long live the king !
I will move mountains for you because I know you would have done so without hesitation for me.
You are the best father in the whole wide world!
Happy Father's Day!
Counting the days until you come home......
Labels: Long Live the Lion King ^^
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Friday, June 17, 2011
7:51 PM
"Nobody sees a flower - really - it is so small it takes time - we haven't time - and to see takes time, like to have a friend takes time." Georgia O'Keeffe, so he says.
Many cross one's life, only a few will leave a mark. We enjoy the company of many acquaintances, however, how many will stay and listen to the sorrow of your heart or leap with joy at your success? We need not but one true friend to see past our disguise. We need not but one true friend who will think of us once in awhile even though we're far apart. It is easy to make acquaintances but difficult to turn it into friendships.
Having said that, I know how blessed I am to have not one, but many who walk with me and will continue to do so even when life gets in the way. It takes two hearts with the same understanding and emotional quantum to collide, causing an impact or bond. Hence forth, a friendship can only be formed naturally albeit not randomly, one can try but never to demand. I have not the knowledge of statistics to calculate the probability of forming a close-knit friendship with another person, but I know it must be extremely lucky of me to have done so with them.
Actually, I preached like a monk here because I am happy that a friend of mine bought me a pretty little gift even though there is no special occasion. I love irregularity in a regular day! We have not seen each other for quite awhile and she's having her holiday right now. Its so sweet of her to have thought of me, thank you so much!I'm feeling all fuzzy warm inside because of you, yeah you! :-P
I think I've just spoiled the solemnity of my writing by including the previous paragraph...oh well..I can't force my writings to sound serious when I'm in such a bubbly mood! " You know that I'm a crazy chick and I do what I want when I feel like it...(that's from Avril Lavigne's Smile, no, I'm not crazy but somehow this song comes into mind when I have nothing else to write :-) )
Labels: Butterfly
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Sunday, May 15, 2011
12:30 AM
I like windy day, where the clouds look heavy, threatening to splash water on the dry land but still waiting for the right moment to do so.I like it when there are thunders once in a while, not too deafening, but just like a soft roar from an awakened lazy lion.
Some flashes of lightning maybe, because sometimes, at the right moment, they looked like lightings from a heavenly stage.
A soft breeze will compliment all the above, making it a perfect combination for a perfect day.
All these will be so welcomed, but no rain, there must be no rain, for it will be too wet and troublesome for people who needs to walk to and fro on the streets.
That's my idea of a nice day, weather that will make me too lazy to do anything that requires much work, where I can just sit and read, or just sleep, very soothing way to spend my holiday ^^
Labels: Lazy Day
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Sunday, May 8, 2011
8:07 AM
I'm dedicating this post for the very woman who influences me the most, and forever stands a considerable position in my heart, the very woman who makes me feel that nothing will ever be so wrong as long as she's by my side, the woman whose life revolves about me,my sisters and my dad but never asked for anything in return. The woman who always tends to our needs but neglects hers, always thinks that any scars that she bears are always worth it as long as we're happy, mother, this is for you.
Thank you for being here with me from the day I was born and never missed any moments of my life, be it big or small occasions.
Thank you for the time you've wasted in waiting for me to come to my senses when I'm being rebellious, obnoxious and inconsiderate.
Thank you for all the patience when I'm just unreasonably cranky and rude to you.
Thank you for your boundless love and faith in me.
Thank you for letting me expand my horizon and curiosity, and went as far as to accompany me when I'm doing that.
Thank you for all those scrumptious meals that await me everyday without fail, no matter how tired you may be.
Thank you for being my courage.
In science language, Robert Hooke once said cell is the basic unit of life. I have to object to that.
For me, my mother is the basic unit of my life, for without her, I wouldn't live to write all these. ( too dramatic, no? :P)
I said it often, but I know its barely enough, so I will say it again, Mother, I love you, so very much, and I wish for your well being. You are the star of my life, in return, I will always try to be the best thing that ever happened to you, other than father of course :P
Your wish, will always be my command, excluding the days when I'm being a brat of course :P hahaha
Happy Mother's Day to all the women who worked the hardest just to make their children happy, no words are enough to pen down the nobility of your love.
Labels: Endless Love
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Saturday, May 7, 2011
3:12 AM
I've just watched Definitely,Maybe. I love it, besides the main attraction of the movie: the cute little girl in that movie, the dashing and charming William and the beautiful woman April along with so many others, I love all the quirky quotes and how life isn't perfect. The main character in the movie made lots of mistakes, and he wasted so many years to get it right again. However, he learned a lot from life, and he found his happiness in the end. Of course the movie has a happy ending, if it ain't a happy ending, I wouldn't love that movie:P Life isn't perfect, but in the end, there must be a happy ending which one finds solace from, that happy ending does not fit into everybody's expectations, it depends on the main character of that movie.
One thing for sure though, love always play a big part in crafting that happy ending. In this case, I would say, it is the love of his daughter that guides him into finding his happiness in the end. So, love can come in any forms, and they all work the same way, give the same effect, at least to me, it appears to be that way. Inevitable in one's life.
Now that's a very comforting fact, it means we will all find happiness, since love comes in so many forms, surely it will hardly miss any of us earthlings right?
Labels: Definitely, Maybe
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